I'm curious if anyone else is in this trial.
My experience so far:
When I started the trial I had a tumor in the lymph nodes in my left armpit a little larger than a baseball. I had mets (confirmed by PET scan last summer) in a lymph node on my front left shoulder, on the back of my left shoulder, on my back right shoulder, on my sternum just to the right of the V (I think it was in the bone), and a very large tumor on the back of my neck. I also believe that I had mets
(based on self-examination) around my stomach, on my left sternum, pelvis, chin and I'm thinking in or around my lungs now based on one of the CT scans that I managed to get a hold of (I seem to get a lot of vague answers to direct questions.... maybe I need to be a little more forecful...).
I got the email on Tues, Oct 30 that there was an open spot in the trial and that I needed to do all of the screening/testing before Friday to get in. It was a very long week. I got an EchoCardiogram, a full CT, an MRI, a full eye exam, a skin exam and a whole bunch of blood. Somehow they managed to schedule me and get me in for everything and I was on my way to signing a giant stack of papers releasing MGH and Novartis from a whole mess of lawsuits.
My last scan was late on Friday and so I entered the weekend with it all hanging over my head. I got the yes on Sunday and so it made making the trek into Boston on Monday morning a little easier. The email proclaimed that I needed to be there for 12 hours for labs, pills, labs and more labs and then come back 24 hours late for more labs. It was awkward at first, like any new situation, but it wasn't bad... just lots of blood, all day long. “I don't know if it's the lack of blood, lack of sleep or this hospital room” I remember thinking while they were asking me if I was feeling any side effects. To be honest I don't think I consciously felt any side effects that first day. I came back in the next day for the 24hr labs and it wasn't a big deal. Somewhere on the 2 hr drive home I started to feel a little off. The MEK had absorbed... My vision went a little wonky and I remember saying to myself “well... this should be interesting if this is my life now.” I waited a day before I reported because they had warned me that vision things could be possible side effects, and also because I didn't want to go back for more tests (mind you I had been in Boston for 5 straight business days and the weekend I had off wasn't a weekend off).
By the time I reported my new “weird vision stuff” I had taken a shower and as a matter of course self-examined the lumps I had come to know so well. I first noticed the lymph node on my left shoulder, just above my pectoral muscle. It was squishy where it had been hard as a rock and had scarily been growing as of late. “What?” I thought. I felt it again and started smiling.”HOLY SHIT!!!” I proclaimed in my head. I started laughing. I wanted to call everyone I knew and tell them that it was working, but my hands were soaking wet (being in the shower and all) and I knew that I had to wait until I found a towel before using my smartphone. I quickly felt for the giant lump under my left armpit that I had named for something and was elated to discover that it too had become squishy and softer than I had become to know it. I finished my shower, a moment brief moment that I will remember with the weight of a thousand suns from now until forever. I made a few phone calls.
Reporting back that I was having vision issues was both terrifying (“what if they take me off the drugs?”) and annoying “we're gonna need you to come in and have your eyes checked again.” “UGH I just spend a week getting poked and prodded... I guess I can come back in for some more....” They checked my eyes and said there was no reason to stop drug and so I kept taking it.