I’m terribly sorry for your loss Carla. You have what must feel like an impossible challenge ahead of you. But you’ll do well.
Yeah, we try so hard only to be turned back in our efforts.
Your anger is normal and healthy right now IMO. I was very angry and fustrated (actually, two years later, I still am a bit) because my wife was denied a seat on the IPI/PD1 combo trial at Sloan due to 3 small brain mets found 3 days prior to her first infusion.
Now please take care of yourself and your child. Be kind to yourself and lean on others as needed. It takes time. There will be rough days and nights with plenty of “snot bubble” moments. But things WILL get easier.
You’ll do just fine.
Jeff