I got the result yesterday that the 1 sentinel node that was removed last Monday came back clear, I still feel incredibly anxious, does this get any better??
That is wonderful news! You need to do some things to make it get better. One is to try to enjoy the moment and disregard the past and future. The mindful meditation approach is very useful and you might want to check out Jon Kabat-Zinn’s work on this or find a local class that offers meditation. Counseling can help and sometimes anti depression and anti anxiety meds are helpful. Time passing of course helps! Keep busy with the things you love.