Hi MLDuddy,
Welcome to the forum. I completely can relate to how you feel, as I was diagnosed a 1B 2 years ago.
What I can tell you is that, believe it or not, gets easier after each check up and as time moves forward. There is a really good support network here as well, led by Catherine. I found that completely understanding my report was helpful in me understanding and coping. As a positive, great to hear that you are diagnosed as a 1a and caught it early!! That’s a great start!